Lying here trying to go to sleep (keep dreamin sunshine), I started wondering when I had this weird idea.
"Yes, Trying to be supermom and keep my intact sanity all at one was a fabulous idea!"
Twatwaffle #1 will be 16 in 4 months. She can receive her GED in September. Is she going to be able to get it? Did I do my job? Did I give her everything she needs? What if they tell her " Sorry, But your mom is a dumbass and you're actually on a 4th grade level." Seriously. And I have 2 more behind her. My kids will end up changing tires and feeding pigeons in the park cursing me for being a completely incompetent mother that barely taught them to read. Can't even find someone to get their yearly test done to see if I have taught them anything this year.
Let's see if I can make myself feel a little worse. The oldest wants to be a large animal vet. Ahhh College. I can't even afford to fix the holes in my floor and now I have to send 3 kids to college.
Do they have pell grants for college students with a stupid parent?
SO, I just came to the realization about 20 minutes ago that I am totally ill-equipped to give them what I wanted to. Totally unskilled at being any sort of dutiful wife and hey, I can blame my mother for that right? That's all she prepared me for anyway. (Way to shoot for the moon there)
All that being said. Apparently the only thing I can bring to the table is a well cooked meal. At least they'll never starve. As long as I go to the grocery store and buy all the things I need without forgetting something (which always happens) and feeling the wrath of Loser for apparently being 12 years old and stupid enough to forget it therefore making him go to the store with me, Which by the way I hate as much as he does but, That's what I'm supposed to do right? Eat it with a knife and fork, Smile, Say thank you and try to keep myself small.
I'll be over there>>>>> Still treading water.
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